April 2012
“No, only the romanticist preserves the things worth preserving.”
—F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned. (via ablogwithaview)
March 2012
So tomorrow
In addition to it already sucking because it’s a damn funeral, my mom is bringing her boyfriend (who I love) which is totally fine, except my dad is going to be there. And he’s going to be an ass, I already know it. He’ll put his asshole face on and he’ll just in general be a dick and I am so not excited to call him out on it. Because I’m the one that always calls him out & if I don’t he’ll ruin this for every one by being the way he’s going to be. It’s been three years since they got divorced and he literally just said a week ago that his sister needs to get over her divorce and stop hating her ex and yet here he is doing the EXACT SAME THING. God. He’s being such a hypocrite. Ugh.
So ya know, family drama day = tomorrow!
“You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn’t your home anymore? all of a sudden, even though you have some place where you put your shit, the idea of home is gone. you’ll see one day when you move out. it just sort of happens one day and it’s gone. you feel like you can never get it back. it’s like—you feel homesick for a place that doesn’t even exist. maybe it’s this rite of passage, you know. you won’t ever have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start. it’s like a cycle or something. I don’t know, but I miss the idea of it. you know? maybe that’s all family really is. a group of people that miss the same imaginary place.”
—Garden State (via exhiist)
I hope Rick Santorum wins the Mega Millions and loses the ticket.
Skipping both of my classes today? Sounds like a plan. Then off to work where I will attempt to not rip people’s heads off because I am ungodly irritated.
Then calling hours tomorrow morning and the funeral after. My stomach is full of anxiety again.. Ugh, I hate feeling like this.
What the Death of the Canadian Penny Says about the U.S.
“Canada is scrapping the penny, ending production of the country’s smallest unit of currency this spring.
Finance Minister Jim Flaherty, whose department described the penny as a “nuisance” in budget documents, said the coin is now more trouble than it’s worth.
The Royal Canadian Mint will stop distributing pennies to financial institutions in the fall of 2012 and the government will work to withdraw one-cent coins from circulation.
The Harper government said the production cost of each penny exceeds its face value. “It costs taxpayers a penny-and-a-half every time we make one,” Mr. Flaherty told the Commons. “Therefore we will stop making them.”
In the United States, you never hear politicians or members of the cabinet saying things like, “It costs taxpayers a penny-and-a-half every time we make one. Therefore we will stop making them.” We don’t make politically neutral, factual statements.
This is why we still have pennies. It’s also why we can’t make sensible reform to medicare*, or end tax subsidies to oil companies**, or even agree to a long-term road building budget***.
Our government is so paralyzed by mutual distrust and ideological rigidity that it can’t implement even the most obvious long-term policies, which is a huge drag on our economy.
Anyway, congratulations on getting rid of your penny, Canada. Even though ours cost our taxpayers far more each year, it looks like we’ll be keeping ours indefinitely.
* The current Republican budget does pretty much dismantle medicare, the American program to get health care to seniors. But in the past few years, Republicans have proposed some sensible reforms to medicare. Medicare is far more efficient in some states than others, often while getting better health care outcomes. But the Democrats refuse to talk about it, because it would “hurt seniors.” (The President is an exception here.)
** I know of no economist who thinks ending these tax subsidies would result in the price of gasoline going up. It is insane to offer billions of dollars of tax breaks to oil companies that already have billions of dollars in profits; it does not incentivize them to do business in the US, and it does not affect the price of gasoline, and it is just insane. And yet Republicans refuse to act because it would mean “raising taxes.”
*** By far the most insane thing the US government is doing these days is refusing to agree to a long-term highway budget. Instead, they’re sending it out piecemeal. This means that states building roads must make short-term contracts, which cost much more per mile of road than long-term contracts. But if we agreed to a long-term roads package, it would mean agreeing to some huge number—400 billion dollars or whatever—and then one’s political opponents would be like, “S/he voted for 400 billion in GOVERNMENT SPENDING,” and … yeah. So we end up spending much more on roads than we need to so that it will SEEM like we are spending very much. That basically sums up the whole affair.
I hope Barack Obama has an OTP that he doesn’t believe will come canon, and then suddenly.. it does.
James Potter in the books vs James Potter in the movies
Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone - BOOK
Dumbledore: This one time, Harry, your father saved Snape’s life.
Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone - MOVIE
*no mention of such event*
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - BOOK
Sirius: Harry, I did this really douchey thing once, and I tried to have Remus kill Snape, but your father heard about it and rushed off to save his life.
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - MOVIE
*no mention of such event*
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - BOOK
*Harry goes into Pensieve and sees James and Sirius picking on Snape very unfairly - Lily intervenes - Snape cuts James’s face open - James does a dick move - Lily gets pissed - Snape calls Lily a Mudblood for absolutely no reason whatsoever - Lily leaves them to it - James gears up for another dick move*
Snape: *interrupting* GTFO, BITCH!
Harry: HOLY SHIT MY FATHER WAS AN ASSHOLE! *warm and fuzzy illusions ruined*
Sirius and Remus: What up?
Harry: You guys. My Dad was an asshole.
Sirius and Remus: OMG NO! HARRY, SERIOUSLY! Look, James was an immature prat when he was a teenager and he did horrible things and WE’RE NOT DENYING IT and everyone regrets how they acted back then, but he grew up and became a better person and he was a great man, I swear. And it wasn’t like Snape was innocent because he was really mixed up in Dark Arts and James HATED Dark Arts so much.
Harry: But my Mum hated him omg.
Sirius and Remus: Dude don’t even worry about that it’s cool, she totally didn’t.
Harry: Okay.
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - MOVIE
*Harry breaks into Snape’s memory in a way that isn’t really possible for somebody who can’t do Legilimency and sees James bullying the shit out of Snape and being the biggest dick in the world*
Harry: ….. my father was an asshole.
*nobody contradicts him*
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - BOOK
*Harry looks into the Pensieve and sees how Snape was in love with Lily but drove her to abandoning their friendship after becoming heavily invested in the Dark Arts and planning to become a Death Eater, and then finally calling her a Mudblood even though Lily was his only friend, and this is a totally rational reason for Lily to break ties with him and we already know that James Potter was essentially a good guy so it makes so much sense that Lily would fall in love with and marry him*
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - MOVIE
*Harry looks into the Pensieve and sees that SNAPE AND LILY WERE SOULMATES OMG BUT THAT BASTARD JAMES POTTER TURNED UP OUT OF NOWHERE AND RIPPED THEM FROM ONE ANOTHER OMG IT’S SO SAD THEIR LOVE WAS TRUE AND NOW SNAPE’S HOLDING HER CORPSE LIKE A FUCKING CREEP BUT OMG SO SAD, GUYS*
accurate.
I find it incredible how much I used to delude myself and actually be naive enough to believe everything that everybody said with regards to how they felt. It’s a shame that for most people (including myself) it takes somebody to really break your trust or take advantage of you for you to actually realise that you’ve been living in Sunshine Rainbow Land all this time and that not everybody does always have the best intentions, even though they may swear blind that they have absolutely have nothing but.
My main realisations recently:
- If you mean enough to somebody, they’ll make time for you. If they can make time to watch a film or go to the pub or do anything else they want to do, then they can most certainly make time for you. If they ‘can’t’ or don’t then it simply means they don’t want to spend time with you and there’s nothing you can do about that.
- People lie. I mean they can spout out the most beautiful sentences and promise you the world and even look right at you and say “I would never lie to you” when you sometimes know full well that that’s exactly what they’ve done. If somebody is prepared to lie to you and then lie about the fact that they lied, they have absolutely no respect for you what so ever.
- I am a kind and generous person who always has everybody’s best interests at heart and I deserve to be treated well by everybody I encounter in my life. So if I ever wish to keep anybody in it for a good amount of time (friends, colleagues, partners, etc.), I should never accept any less than what I deserve. Ever.
Perfect.
